20 Days.

It’s really hitting me now.. I have 20 days until my best friend leaves for basic training in the Air Force. Yeah, he will only be a couple hours away, but for 9 whole weeks. 9 weeks of being separated from my best friend, and then 2 years after that. And then who knows after that.. It’s gonna be tough. This guy has been there for me through soooo much, and we have been through a lot together. We became friends my sophomore year of highschool. I admit, I had a crush on him once we started talking and I got to know him. So that summer, my other best friend, Morgan,hinted to him about my feelings, and he said he only wanted to be friends. Of course I was hurt when she told me the news, but the cool part was, he meant what he said, because not one thing changed between us. There was absolutely no awkward stage after that. We just, went back to how we were, and got even closer. Junior year came along, my feelings for him not fading one bit, but still we ended up getting even closer. Then senior year, the year we pronounced ourselves best friends lol. And I know it was true, because that was also the year I made him a giant birthday card, the year we got into multiple stupid arguments, but couldn’t stay mad at each other for more than a day, if even a full day. We talked pretty much every single day that year, during and after school. Even when we didn’t have a class together second semester, we made a little 2 minute gap between 2nd and 3rd pd for a hug and some small talk, and a good 5 minutes at lunch, because we had separate lunches as well. Senior year was also the year I gave it one more shot at confessing my feelings to him. I wrote him a letter, as his graduation gift, talking about all the memories we’ve had and how much I love having him as my best friend, and at the end, I told him that I’d like to have chance with him, as more than best friends. But I also said I would understand if he didn’t wanna be anything more than best friends, because I love our relationship as is as well, and he knew that. So, I gave him this letter on a Friday after school, 2 weeks before graduation. He didn’t have a phone at the time, so I just had to wait until Monday for a response. Monday rolled around and I was pretty nervous. I saw him, and he acted completely normal, but it was just a passing by in the hall. Later on, Marcy called me saying she saw him with his phone, I was a little upset at that point, so I spent my lunch period with Marcy in her class instead. We went to meet him after her class, at his class down the hall. I, of course, was all “No phone, huh?” He responds with, “I just got it on Friday!” I say, “Oh, and you couldn’t text me all weekend?” His response, “I didn’t have any numbers! Just text me later, okay?” So I just stared at him with a face of whatever and said “alright, alright, I’ll talk to you later.” lol. So I texted him later, and actually ended up giving him a ride home after his powerlifting practice that day too, and on the ride home and whole time chillin outside his house, everything was 100% normal. The next day, I texted him asking if he had read the last part of the letter, and what he though about it. In return, he sent me a fairly long text, explaining that he didn’t want to be more than best friends, and his reasons were legitimate. He also said he had a feeling I liked him the entire time, which I found amusing lol cause, even after somewhat knowing I liked him the entire time, he never once acted awkward, different, or weird with me. He was always real with me. And after that convo, in a matter of minutes we were already back to normal. I have a pretty unique relationship with this guy, if I do say so myself lol. I liked him before I was even close friends with him, and we still managed to become best friends. And I’m sure you can tell that he means the world to me and I care about him with all my heart. So, now I’m in my first year of college, he got a job at a restaurant, so of course Marcy and I went and requested him as a waiter, just to harass him a bit hahaha! But hey, we left him good tips lol! He doesn’t work there anymore though, he quit last month as his leave date was getting closer. So since he quit, Marcy and I pay a visit to his house at least twice a week for a bit just to chit chat and be mean to each other haha. And now, I’m down to my last 3 weeks with him. My last 3 weeks with my best friend just down the road. 3 weeks to make a few more memories, have a few more laughs, a few more hugs, and a few more hang out days. It freaks me out and is quite emotional to be honest..it makes my stress levels just skyrocket. I’m just so used to seeing him at least once or twice a week. It’s just gonna be a big change that I don’t know if I’m ready for, but I have to be. I just hope these last 3 weeks go by sssllloooowwwww. I’m gonna miss my best friend like crazy. I have no idea what I’d do without him, there is NEVER a dull moment with him around. We have countless memories and everytime I think of one, I can’t help but smile.(: I am so blessed to have that boy as my best friend, and I know we will always be best friends. I wish he didn’t have to go.. but, I’m so proud of that boy and support him every step of the way on his Air Force journey. I love him.

Until next time loves!

-MidnightMind :*

Tears On Her Prom Dress

I’m apologizing now, cause this story is pulled out of my very own, depressing life events collection. So here it goes.
I don’t know why, but for some reason, I began thinking back to my senior prom. It was back in February, when I was still in high school of course. I vowed since about freshman year that I WOULD NOT attend prom, but of course with the pressure of my best friends, I was forced to go. So, i set out on the search for the “legendary” prom dress. At first, I was looking for anything that caught my eye. I’m not the type of girl that needs an extravagant dress to outdo everyone else, but I did want something a little different that I would normally get. So, keep in mind, before this I had been talking to my friend, who I like very, very, much, about finding a prom dress. I asked him if he was going to get a tux in his favorite colors, red and black. He replied with “I was actually thinking about it:)”. We continued talking and I admitted that I still hadn’t gone dress shopping, and this was about 4 weeks before prom. I told him that I would just go in jeans and boots, problem solved lol, but he told me no and when i asked why he goes “cause I said so:)” haha. So anyway, at the mall, I tried on tons of dresses, none of them quite fitting the way they should have. Finally at the last store, I came across a cute, very simple, dress. A little too simple, actually, but it was a quick find and a steal of a price. The colors, they happened to be red and black. It was black, strapless, kind of short, with a red band under the bust that tied in the back. I got home that night and texted him telling him I found a dress and to guess the colors. He immediately responded with “red and black?” I continued by explaining that it wasn’t a dress I liked so much for prom, but I settled for it. So a couple of weeks later, I began searching online for other dresses, and I came across a beautiful short red dress, with a black band under the bust, and little black flower designs and trimming at the bottom. It was gorgeous, I fell in love with it. Sadly, the dress wasn’t available in my size. ): I told my friend this as well, his response.. “well who’s fault is that if they took to long to find a dress????:)” I responded with “hey! in my defense I wanted to go a long time ago but mom wouldn’t take me! and it’s the websites fault for not having my size!:p” he replied with “oh really:)!!!” we always messed around with arguments like this haha. So, I kept searching, and finally came across what I simply called my dress. In case you can’t tell by now, I was indeed trying to get my friend to ask me to prom, it wasn’t intentional at first, but after I found the first dress that matched his tux color scheme, and bought accessories for it, I decided to keep looking for a red and black dress. So, I found a strapless red dress, it had a band under the bust with a flower like design in rhinestones on the side of the band, and the short skirt of it poofed out just enough, it was adorable. I accompanied it with black floral print tights and a small black shrug. The complete outfit looked great as I tried it on the night it came in the mail. While still having the dress on and sitting on the edge of my bed, I had already been texting my friend since earlier that night, so I told him about this dress, and well, here’s  the conversation:

Me- “my other prom dress came in! it’s prettier than the first one lol”

Him- “what’s the colors?”

my thoughts by this time: oh shit… he’s on to me…. wait, omg what this is a good thing? okay, just act the same, it’s cool.

Me- “red(:”

Him- “you just wanna match me don’t you!!:)!!”

omg, yes! he knows and he seems happy about it! he’s totally gonna ask me! my heart was already racing, I had a smile on my face that would not fade away, my cheeks were already hurting from smiling so much and so big! I continued smiling as I typed back.

Me- “haha well at first I had no intention of it, the first dress just happened to be red and black, but now, yes (:”

Him- “Soooo you tryin to go with me!!:))”

*insert girly squeal here* yes! this was it!

Me- “lmao! honestly, kinda haha, you caught me (:”

omg! next message he’s so gonna ask me to prom! yes! i’m gonna have a prom date! i wonder if he’s gonna flat out ask me? gah, this night was great!

I sat and waited anxiously. I put my phone aside on my bed as I stood up to twirl in my dress. I had a full blown smile on my face, my cheeks were naturally blushed, and for once my heart felt content. I couldn’t believe things were actually happening as I wanted them too. My phone went off and I anxiously grabbed at my phone, clicking on my new message to reveal the question I had been waiting for, so I thought…

this is it! I thought with that same huge smile on my face and butterflies swarming my stomach.

I opened the message and my smile quickly faded.

Him- “Nooo I’m goin by myself. I told you this:)”

He never told me that. I would have remembered if he did. Of course, I pretended as if nothing was wrong as I continued texting him.

Me- “haha you didn’t tell me that sir”

Him- “I did tell you!!!”

Me- “when??! Lol”

Him- “Tuesday!!”

Me- “are you sure?”

Him- “yes:)”

Me- “….I don’t remember lol I’m sorry /:”(i have no idea why i was apologizing…)

Him- “its okay:)lol”

My cheeks got hot, my eyes got warm and my vision blurred from oncoming tears. I threw my phone behind me on my bed. I no longer felt pretty in my dress. I no longer even had a desire to go to prom. All my confidence had just been crushed. I felt so stupid as I sat there, in my prom dress, alone in my room, crying. I cried so much that night. I finally got up to get out of the stupid prom dress. He had no idea what he had just done to me. My heart broke in 2 and sank in my chest. My senior prom wasn’t supposed to feel like this. Yeah, that definitely was a great night.

Not to mention he ended up getting a date to prom about a week later, after that conversation. Yeah. As you can tell I’m still not over this. Or him.

Can someone say finals?

Ugh, life of a college student! It’s been nothing but study, study, study this week! And the forecast for this weekend is going to be exactly the same! Although I hate these finals with a burning passion, I’m glad they are here cause that means semester one is nearly over! I finally get a much needed break from the college life! Ahh it just sound great already! The only test and review I am loathing and fearing would be nutrition! A 21 page review of information that I need to know, that may or may not be on the actual test! Because all the other tests have been significantly different from the reviews and it drives me insane! -_- My professor is pretty much an idiot. Ugh, anyways, I did have a pretty good day though. I love my best friends so much! They’re the absolute best. I had been studying so much, and one of my best friends, Marcy, knew this, so what does she do? She comes by my house to surprise me with an ice cream from stripes haha. After staying outside and chit chatting for a bit, she decided I needed more of a break from studying, so she called up my best friend Dillon lol. So we dropped my his house for a bit, had a good 20 minute visit with him, and honestly it was much needed! Lol I never turn down best friend time, especially since he is leaving for Air Force soon, I take every chance I get! But yeah, him and Marcy had their usual bickering moments where they just act like complete jerks to each other haha. And of course I side with whoever’s comeback seems to be better lmfao. I love those two, I’d be a mess without them! So after our visit with Dillon, Marcy then took me to get a fruit cup with all the works I might add, chile, lime, and salt, mm! They’re the best! Lol & then of course we roamed around walmart for a bit before she brought me back home. It was a much needed little break for me! And my favorite part was definitely when we went to go visit with Dillon, because I love having all 3 of us together, there’s never a dull moment! Especially with Dillon around haha, he’s an odd boy, but I love him.(: so that was my little adventure of the day! Kinda sad that I refer to that as an adventure… Yeah, I don’t get out much! Haha. Well I probably won’t post again til finals are over… And then I’ll have all of Christmas break to post, woohoo! So until then fellow bloggers! Goodnight loves! :*
-MidnightMind<3

Unorganized Thoughts.

Hey guys! So it’s been forever since I’ve blogged, I’m sorry! I have just been so swamped with college. I’ve come to find that my Nutrition teacher does not know how to make a test review! We’ve had 2 exams, and on both, the review feels like its completely different from the actual test! It is beyond frustrating! Everyone notices is it too, but he’s one of those stubborn teachers that has a policy “what he says goes” and “he’s always right even when he’s wrong”. So I just hope my final, which is in 2 weeks, goes smoothly. Anyway, enough college talk, I get enough of that. I am currently slightly upset at my best friend. He’s been acting so stupid lately, like moody, and has not replied to any of my messages for like a week now, but he’s been replying to other people, so I’m like, what the hell? So I refuse to message or call him anymore until he contacts me. So let’s see how long that lasts or how long he takes to contact me. We honestly do this quite often… he’ll start acting like a stupid little pansy and get these stupid little mood swings that lasts for days, so I’ll get mad cause he acts stupid towards me, but I don’t tell him I just stop replying. And then we don’t talk for like 2 weeks max, and then when we do everything is fine and dandy again. We are the oddest pair, I swear. So yeah, I’m just giving him some time for now til I miss him too much and have to tell him something lol. He’s my best friend, I can’t stay mad at him! But for now, I’m in no mood for his stupid attitude so I’m gonna wait til he gets over whatever it is he’s mad about, or until he’s ready to talk to me about it.  Cause I know somethings wrong, but he’ll never tell me until we are in person, but we don’t get to see each other much. So I’ve learned to just wait. Any who, I miss my other best friend, Morgan, like crazy right now! She lives about 2 hours away from me now. I know it’s not too bad, but she hardly gets to come home to visit and I hardly get to go to her. One of us is always busy with homework or studying. Stupid college./: But yeah, she’s been my best friend for 6 years.(: I don’t know what I’d do with out that girl! Do you ever have those people in your life, where you know that if you didn’t meet them, you would have been a totally different person, cause that’s how much they impacted your life? Yeah, that’s Morgan! She was my first real best friend and she honestly made me who I am today.(: I love those people in life. They are what makes life worth living. I’m so glad we survived through all the drama middle and high school dragged us through lol. Okay, well, I believe this post has been sufficiently boring, random, and unorganized haha. I’ll try to post a better one with an actual topic later. Bye, loves!

-MidnightMind10

By midnightmind10

Advice anyone?

Hey guys! So I’ve currently been thinking, and I really want to try to lose some weight and get fit! I mean, I’m happy with myself, but I could be happier ya know? So my question for you guys is do you have any tips on getting in shape and losing weight? Or just any tips on how to motivate yourself to keep up with workouts? I just need help honestly lol. I’ve never been a fitness person, never played sports in high school, no athletics classes, nothing like that. I’ve always been on the heavy side and I’m ready change that! I know its going to be a long and slow process, but I need to really commit! I’ve told myself and tried multiple times to stick with a workout schedule or diet but its so difficult for me! I jus need the motivation and someone there to tell me what to do, but I cant afford to pay for a personal trainer and I don’t like working out in gyms :s I’m so much more comfortable at home, but I need help! I honeslty wanna drop a good 60 pounds of weight. Should I set such a big goal right off the bat?  Or break it off into a bunch of little goals?? Gah I have no idea how to even start this journey! If anyone has any tips, advice, suggestions, etc., for me, it would be greatly appreciated! Thank you loves!
-MidnightMind♥

Summer Time Memory! (:

Hey guys! Sorry it’s been a while lol but I just realized I still owe y’all the story about my best friend surprising me and about pranking his car! His name is Dillon btw, I don’t think I ever mentioned that haha. So, here we go!

It was towards the end of the summer in August and Marcy and I had planned a sleep over. Well, Marcy decided to do some planning on her own to get Dillon over as well, I was unaware. Well, the morning this was all supposed to happen she called me and told me the whole plan because Dillon wasn’t able to make it after all. So of course I was really bummed! I really wanted to spend some time with my best friend. But I was lk half asleep when she called so I was lk ehh whatever, and went back to sleep. I woke up at around noon and I honestly thought the convo about Dillon not being able to make it was a dream! So I texted Marcy and asked her and she was lk no that was real. So I was sooo bummed and I told her that all I needed was a best friend hug and to see him and I’d be happy. Later on she called me to tell me she had to go to walmart after I picked her up, I found this kind of odd that she called just to say that, so I got a little suspicious, but just let it go. So it was around 5 when I left to get Marcy, cause I had to get her after practice at 6 at the high school. So on my way to pick her up, I get a phone call. From who you ask? Yep, Mr. Dillon lol. The convo went a little lk this: (dashes- are me talking and asterisks* are dillon)

-Hello?
*Heyyy.
-What’s up?
*I just wanted to say I’m sorry I can’t make it to spend the night with y’all.
-Oh, its ohkayyy. I just miss you!
*I know!
-Where are you?
*Sitting in my car at home.
-Why are you in your car?
*I just got off work so I barely pulled up in my driveway.
-Ohhh ok. I wish you could come. I miss you so much its ridiculous!
*I’m sorry!
-Well I’m not mad at you or anything.
*Oh so you’re mad at me!?
-No!
*Oh.. ok good.
-Yeah I was saying I wasn’t stupid.*Whatever. < (we always joke around all mean like this haha.)
Well if you’re at home maybe me and Marcy can go by before we go home just to say hi?
*Well idk when I’m leaving, but I’ll let you know.
-Oh yeah.. okay.
*I’m sorry. Hey I got to go I’ll talk to you later.
-Okay, bye dillon love you!
*Love you too.

So then I hung up the phone and kept driving and I got to the school. I called Marcy about 3x to tell her I was there and she didn’t answer so I just sat in my car and waited. Few minutes pass and I get a text from Dillon. “I already left :/” So I called him back.

*Hello?
-You already left to go out of town?
*Yeah.
-Well… Come by the school to see me!
*I can’t I’m with my parents and my little brother.
-Hawww okay nevermind.
*I’m sorry.
-It’s cool.
*Hey are you in your car?
-Yeah, why?
*Oooo, driving around in your new car, newly licensed, you’re fancy!
-Yeah, I am!
*Well, you know what I did? Drank a margarita with my pinky out and everything.
-Ohhh, your cool!
*Yeah, I am.
-Stupid.
*Shutup. Hey my dad’s tellin me I need to get off the phone.
-I feel like your dad doesn’t like me..
*No he likes you!
-Okay, tell him and your mom I said hi!
*They say hi, and my brother is just giving this blank stare.
-Nice.
*Ight, well I got to go, I’ll talk to you later.
-Ight, yeah I’ll probably text you later, and we’ll blow up your phone and call you tonight.
*Ugh, okay!
-Bye.
*Peace!

So I hang up and about 2 minutes later Marcy is at my car door. She chunks her bags in the back and gets in the front seat. So I told her about dillon calling to apologize for not coming and everything and she was all shocked cause he never does that lol. So then my phone started ringing and it was him again! At this point I’m thinking ‘what the hell this boy never calls me this much’ so I go to answer and Marcy snatches the phone out of my hands and is like “Hey its Marcy………yeah we’re going to walmart……..okay.” and then hands the phone back to me. I just gave her this look and she was lk well, go to walmart. So I put the phone on speaker and start talking to dillon while driving to walmart and he’s basically just talking nonsense, and then my phone died on us. So I go to park at walmart and Marcy and I get out of my car, and as I’m about to turn around she goes “wait! Get my purse I need it.” well it was on the passanger side floorboard so I go “here you get it.” And moved out of the way. So I turn around and in the parking space right behind us I see a familiar car. I stared at it for a second and then once I read the plate number, I knew it. It was Dillon’s car! I immediately got a smile on my face and I looked up to see my best friend getting out of his car. “heyyy!!!” he said with a big smile and I walked up to him still a little confused as he hugged me. So here’s this convo: (add in + for Marcy talking)

-what the hell?
*what? (huge smile on both our faces, well all 3 of us really lol)
-what are you doing here? Just a quick hi and bye or what?
*no! I’m going home with you to spend the night with you tonight!
-what? Wait…. Marcy! Was this planned?
+whhhaattt? Noooo……
-you guys are good! Y’all got me damn it! What happened? I though you had to go out of town?
*I did but it got postponed!
-I still can’t get over how good y’all got me!
+we did damn good!
*hell yeah we did!
-ugh, I hate y’all, but I love y’all so much!

So we all go into walmart cause Marcy needed post its for “school” *wink, wink* lol. That’s what we told dillon at least! He had no idea what was in store for him that night! We’d been planning the prank on his car for about a month! I had pics printed out and everything! Lol! So Marcy buys the post its, but she’s short a couple bucks so dillon helped her out. So we go home after that, dillon follows me in his car, and of course he has to drive like an ass behind me, trying to pass me on every passing lane lmao but he didn’t cause he didn’t know where he was going haha. So we make it home, mom and dad were surprised Dillon was there too cause he barely gets to come over. So we all go inside, come to my room, and just chit chat. Dillon went for a run as me and Marcy followed him in the gator haha. (I live on a ranch with lots of land, remember lol). After that we jus hang out outside and in the barn, playing pool, listening to music, and jus talking and laughing so much, having our usual best friend convos! So finally at almost midnight we all came inside. Dillon got in the shower, and me and Marcy took that chance to scope out his car! So we went outside and luckily it was already unlocked! So after checking it out we come inside, he gets out of the shower, then I go take a shower, and Marcy showered last. Dillon and I just watched YouTube videos until Marcy was out and the we all went into the kitchen to eat, at like 1 in the morning yes lol. So I make everyone food and after eating and talking for about an hour and a half, we go into the den to watch Pitch Perfect! It’s all 3 of ours favorite movie haha so it was more like quoting it instead of watching it haha. So as the movie comes to the end I can tell dillon is dozing off, so I go “dillon? Diillloonnnn?” And he wakes up some and I go “sweetie, go to bed, you’re gonna end up crashin out in like 10 minutes.” And he just goes, “ughh…fine, ight.. what are y’all gonna do?” And I jus say “probably just watch another movie.” He was sleeping in my sisters room that night cause she wasn’t home so it worked out perfect! So we say our goodnights and he goes to bed. Me and Marcy stay up and talk for about 45 minutes before commencing our operation haha. So its about to be 5 a.m. Marcy and I come to my room, grab all the stuff we need, and head out to his car. We each grabbed 3 packs of post its and a sharpie. She started on the driver side and I started on the passenger side. We wrote some sort of msg or note on each post it and covered every window in post its. The outside was done in about 30 minutes. Then came the really fun part! A few days before, I had printed out pics of everything he hates. For Dillon, this would be things like my fav country singers, anything related to country music, shows I love such as Teen Wolf,all the boy bands every teen girl loves (one direction, Justin beiber, etc.), every hot shirtless male celebrity I could think of, and spiders! And to lighten things up, I printed pics of me as well.(: So we sat in his car with my phone flashlight on and taped as many of these pics as we could to his windshield, console, radio, steering wheel, rear view mirror, the visors, glove box, just everywhere up front! I was nice enough to tape the picture of me and a picture that said I love you right smack dab in the middle of his steering wheel though.(: and then we had a bunch of tiny pics of me and sprinkled them all over the dash and inside the glove box! All the left over pics that didn’t get taped anywhere got thrown all over his back seat! Gah, it was GREAT! So after all this we finally finished at about 6:15 in the morning. We sneak back inside, get into bed, and stay up talking til about 7 cause of how excited we were to his reaction later haha. So I wake up at about 11:30 to a text from my mom saying “the post its are flying everywhere!” So I immediately get out of bed to go look out my window. Luckyily, most of the post its had stayed on. Marcy heard me wake up and woke up too. I told her what mom said, so we go outside to double check the post its on the car. After making sure everything was still good, we came back inside and layed down for about 20 minutes waiting for Dillon to get up, but we grew impatient quickly, and went into the room in an attmept to wake him up. We got him up at about noon. We began hinting to him about his car.

+hey have you checked your keys?
*what did y’all do? I swear if y’all drove my car!
+not exactly.
*I feel like something on my keys is missing…
+Oh its not on your keys. (Marcy backed away and walked away to wait outside at this point)
*I swear if y’all touched my car!
-Technically we didn’t…..kinda… Maybe you should just go outside to take a look at your car.. (I said this while backing away, and as soon as he started getting up, I ran outside)

Marcy and I are standing outside near his car, and about 2 minutes later he comes outside. The look on his face was just, omg! PRICELESS! It was just filled with hate, love, and disppoinment! Lol! He comes up to his car and starts at the driver side door and read every single post it all the way around the car! and all he was saying was “what the hell! Damn it guys! Really?! Ugh!” I simply told him he should be proud of my for doing something so epic! And he was proud of me.(: after he was done yelling at me haha. So he was about to walk away, but Marcy and I go “Hey wait, don’t you want to take a look on the inside?” And his face when we said this, omg it was great! He just goes “what? No… Y’all didn’t….please no.” I slowly opened the front passenger door and he looke inside. “Gah dammit you guys! Hawww! Really?! I thought my car was locked!” “nope!” we both replied in unison haha. He just have me his look he always shoots at me, and I simply smile and put my arms out for a hug lol. He hugged me, then continued looking through his car to see what we did, as Marcy and I snapped pictures of him lol! & when he found all my tiny pics, that was the best! I’m pretty sure there’s still some left in the glove box haha. We then came inside to get dressed and eat, and after we went outside to be nice and attempt to help him clean his cat up, but he refused to accept our help! Lol. So we jus watched and made him keep every single post it! And we also made him leave all the pictures on the inside of his car there until he got home.(:

The end! So I hope I didn’t bore you guys with this story! I didn’t expect it to be this long…lol. But it was the highlight of my summer and the best weekend I’ve had in a very long time! It still makes me laugh lmao! It was a great weekend and its forever going to be one of the best memories!((:

Much love! :* -MidnightMind

Story Time!

Hey guys! Well, like I said, I was thinking about posting one of my short stories on here, and I finally finished a new one! So here it is, hope you like it.(: and by the way, I’ve had these characters for quite some time, and they’ve never done anything like this, so it was about time haha. Enjoy! -MidnightMind

It was a Saturday night in Lyric’s teenage life and was she out partying with her friends like everyone else? No. She was stuck at home, alone, and grounded because she needed to write her college essay that was due by Monday, and of course being Lyric, she waited til last minute. Even her parents went out to a dance and were going to stay with her aunt that night, and who knows where Leo, her older brother, was.
Lyric was laying on her stomach on her bed. She had her comfy black shorts and white tank top on, with her hair up in a bun and glasses on. She was staring down at a blank, white, page in her spiral while twirling her pen through her fingers.
“Think, think, think!” She said to herself as she thumped her head against her palm.
“This shouldnt be that hard for you Lyric! It’s about you! Who influenced your career choice? Not a hard question!” She contemplated with herself.
She groaned in frustration as she put her head down. She stayed like that for a few minutes, but was suddenly disturbed from an incoming call on her cell phone. Assuming it was her mom checking in like she often did, she slowly picked up the phone without looking.
   
“What?” She said in an uncaring tone.
“Man, rude much babe?”
“Oh hey Logan! I’m so sorry babe, I thought you were mom..”
“It’s okay,” he said with a chuckle. “So how’s the essay coming along?”
“Oh, wanna hear what I have?” 
“Sure.” Logan answered.
There was a long pause of silence on the phone line.
“Babe? Are you gonna tell me what you have?”
“Oh, this is it.” 
“You didn’t say anything?”
“Exactly!”
“Really babe!? You’ve gotten nothing done?” 
“Dont yell at me!” Lyric said back. “I don’t know what’s wrong, I just can’t think.” 
“Do you need help?” 
“….no…” She said hesitantly.
“Are you sure?” Logan asked.
“No.” She answered again.
Logan laughed, “Haww Lyric Ariela!” 
“Don’t middle name me!”
Logan just laughed and said “I’ll be right over, ok?” 
“If mom knows you were here I’ll be in so much trouble!”
“Who says she has to know?” He responded with an audible smirk over the phone.
“Be right over, love you!” He said again.
Lyric jus shook her head with a big.smile on her face and said “Love you too.”
   
About 15 minutes later there was a knock at her front door. She left her room to go to the front door and before opening it, yelled sarcastically from inside the house,
“My oh my, who ever could this be at my door, at this time of night!?” 
She could hear Logan’s laugh on the other side of the door.
“Babe, open the door!”
Lyric laughed and opened the door,
“Well hello there, handsome!” She greeted him.
He had on his jeans and boots, nice, tight, dark blue, American Eagle, shirt and his black leather jacket he always
wore when it was the slightest bit chilly.
“Hey pretty girl.” He greeted her back with a smile and a kiss as he walked through the door. Lyric shut it behind him.
“So come on let’s go, gotta finish this essay before your mom gets home!”
“Logan she’s not coming home tonight.” She said with a chuckle.
“Oh.. Ohhhhhh.” he said back with a smirk.
“What?” Lyric questioned with a smile.
“We have the house to ourselves…. All night….” He began moving in closer to Lyric and soon had her backed into the wall “..no interruptions.” He finished as he raised a hand to caress her face and kissed her passionately. 
Lyric slightly pushed him away and said with a smile “Logan, no, I cant!” 
“Why?”
“I don’t know where Leo is he could come home any minute! And I need to write my essay!” 
“Haww, fine let’s go do your work..” Logan said in a pouty voice, but still grabbed Lyrics hand and led her to her own room.

The two of them got situated in her room. Lyric returned to the spot on her bed and Logan layed next to her. He picked up the spiral with the blank page.
“Man babe, you really outdid yourself with this paper! This sentence, brilliant!”
“I know, right! Check out my conclusion!” 
“Aw man, yeah!” He said as they high fived.
“Okay, okay, now get serious, I need help Logan!”
Logan laughed “Alright babe, chill!”
“I’m sorry, just a little stressed I guess.” 
“It’s okay, now let’s get focused pretty girl!” 
“Okay!” Lyric answered with a smile.
“So first off, what’s your career choice?”
“An elementary school teacher and the educational field, you know that.”
“Now I do, but before, when I barely knew you, I didn’t.”
“Yeah? What are you getting at?” 
“These people that are gonna read this essay, they have no idea who you are, what you want, and who you want to become. Through this essay, that’s what they wanna know. They wanna know your story.” 
Lyric looked at Logan a little blankly and mumbled out “Soooo…..” in a semi confused tone.
Logan breathed out and started “Okay Lyric, do you remember the day you told me what you wanted to do? You told me you wanted to be a teacher, an educator, and help kids?”
“Of course.” She answered.
“So do I, and I remember how passionate you sounded about it, and I could see how bright your eyes got when you talked about it. That’s the Lyric that these people want to see.” He said as he pointed to the blank page. “So basically, pretend you’re telling me all about it all over again, got it?”
There was a long pause and she finally said “You’re the best.” with a huge smile.
He smiled back, “So it helped?” 
“Yes!” she exclaimed while working on her first sentence.
   
Time passed and Logan sat and waited, occupying himself with anything he could until Lyric was done with her essay. He found himself looking through her jewelry, rummaging through her closet, in the kitchen looking for food, on her computer (until she kicked him off because she needed to start typing), and watching tv in the living room. After about 2 hours time, he even began cleaning the room, which is what caught Lyric’s eye. She turned her chair from the computer and looked at Logan.
“Babe,” 
He looked up at her with one of her tank tops in hand.
“what are you doing?” She asked him.
“You have all these in a pile on the floor” he said while picking the rest up “it’s ridiculous! Are they even dirty?” 
Lyric brought her palm up to her forehead and softly said “Sweetie, put the tank tops down and come here. I need help with my conclusion.”
Logan dropped the tank tops back in the same pile on the floor, and walked up to Lyric.
“Here, read from here down and tell me what you think.” She said as she pointed on the computer screen.
“Okay.” Logan answered. 
As he began reading Lyric could hear the slight mumble in his voice as he read to himself.
“Okay, can I?” He asked as he placed his hands on the keyboard.
“Yeah.” Lyric answered.
Logan typed away for a couple of minutes and then backed away.
“I’m brilliant.” He said to himself.
“I’ll be the judge of that!” Lyric said as she rolled closer to the computer in her chair.
She read the piece Logan had added silently to herself.
“Oh my gosh babe! That is really good! I love it!” She exclaimed.
“Told you!” He said in a cocky tone. Lyric just laughed “Okay now just spell check, everything’s good.. alright, and print!” 
“Woo hoo!” Logan exclaimed as he grabbed the arms of the chair and swiveled Lyric towards him. He kissed her once, and during the second kiss things became much more passionate between the two of them, as Logan lifted Lyric off of her chair.

Logan walked over to her bed and layed Lyric down on on her back. He climbed on top of her and his fingertips ran softly and slowly up the outside of her thigh, where it lingered as they kissed. She had both of her hands resting on Logan’s sides and they began making their way up and under his shirt. Quickly getting the memo, he kneeled up and stripped his shirt off before going back down to kiss Lyric’s neck. While he had her distracted, his hand began wandering up her white tank top and lifting it as well. As his hand reached jus under her bra, he went down and began kissing her stomach until he got just above the waistline of her shorts. He then moved back up to her lips. His hand moved higher under her shirt and she quickly put her hand on top of his. Logan looked at her, slightly confused, thinking she wanted to stop, but instead she sat up and allowed him to remove her tank top. He slowly pulled it over her head and tossed it aside. Just as they were about to lay back down, the sound of the front door opening was quickly recognized.
   
“Oh shit!” Lyric shot up, “Oh no! Oh my god!” She whispered in a panicked tone.
“Who is it?” Logan asked.
“I don’t know!” She whispered as she pushed Logan off of her and grabbed one of the tank tops from the pile on the floor, and put it on in a frenzy.
“Hide.” She whispered to Logan and motioned towards the closet. He ran into the closet and shut the door.
   
Lyric walked out of her room and shut the door behind her. She slowly creeped down the hallway not knowing who was going to be around the corner. She heard rummaging in the kitchen.
“Hey sis.” Leo said once she made it out of the hallway and in the doorway of the kitchen.
“Oh Leo, hey! What.. what are you doing home?” She said, trying to sound calm.
“Ah, just came home to eat real quick, then gonna go out with the guys, probably stay the night at TJ’s house.”
“Oh! Okay!” Lyric perked up.
“Well don’t sound so disappointed that I’m leaving again.” He said sarcastically.
Lyric laughed a little nervously. “So, how long until you leave again?” 
“I don’t know, probably about an hour at most. Why?” 
“Oh, umm, I was just going to ask you if you could bring be some food real quick, but it’s cool.” She quickly fibbed.
“You sure?” Leo asked.
“Yeah, I’m sure I’ll find something here.” She said as she glanced back to the door of her room.
“Ight, but if you change your mind let me know.” He said with his mouth full of lasagna leftovers.
“Thanks bro.” Lyric said as she chuckled at him. “I’m gonna go back to my room and finish up my essay.”  
Leo simply gave her a thumbs up.
   
She walked back into her room and went to open the closet door. She pushed aside her clothes to find Logan sitting in the dark on his phone. They spoke in hushed tones.
“Really?” She questioned.
“Oh hey, so what’s going on?” He said.
“It was only Leo, said he’s gonna leave again in about an hour to stay with one of his bros.” 
“Soooo?” Logan questioned.
“Well, you can either wait, or sneak   out.” 
“Well, if I wait, are we gonna pick up where we left off?” Logan asked with a smirk.
Lyric just smiled back at him.
“Is that a yes?”
“Maybe. We’ll see…” She leaned in close to Logan and whispered even lower in his ear “if you think you can handle me.” And leaned back again with a sexy smirk on her face.
Logan leaned up and began kissing her aggressively and she kissed back before gently pushing him away.
“Just a little longer babe!” She whispered.
“Ughhh.” Logan groaned. 
“Whoa, puttin’ in practice for later or what?” Lyric joked.
Logan jus glared at her. “You’re lucky your cute and that I love you!” 
“I know.” She said back with a sweet smile.

About 45 minutes later, Leo called for Lyric.
“Lyric!” He said from the other side of the door as he knocked.
“Hurry, get back in the closet!” She whispered to Logan before answering Leo.
“Yeah?” 
Leo opened the door. “I’m gonna head out, ight?”
“Alright brother, be careful, love you.” 
“Love you too sis, get that paper done.” He said as he pointed at her.
“It’s already done.” She said as she raised up the printed copy.
“Oh.. good! And by the way, mom might pop in later, she called me earlier sayin’she wasn’t sure if they were gonna stay the night after all cause dad was feeling sick.” 
“Oh…” Lyric said.
“Yeah, so if you plan on sneaking friends over, make sure they have a quick get away!” He warned.
Lyric lauged as she said “Okay, thanks bubba.” 
“No problem. Bye!” He said while closing the door.
“Bye!”

She waited to hear the front door close.
“Soooo… I don’t know now.” She said out loud.
Logan pushed the closet door open with his foot.
“Boooooo.” He said, disappointed.
“Well, what if she comes home and.catches us?” 
Logan shrugged with a concerned face.
“I mean, I really doubt she’ll come home. It’s already 2 in the morning.” Lyric said.
“Your call babe. It’s okay if you don’t want to. I’ll understand.” 
“I know.”
Lyric got up and went to the closet to help Logan up.
“Well….. Where’s the fun if there’s not a little risk involved?”  She asked with a smirk as she gazed into his eyes and ran her hands down his chest.
“Are you sure you want to?” He asked.
“Mhm.” Lyric said as she nodded with a shy smile on her face.
Logan smiled and kissed her passionately as she kissed back. She backed up until her thighs hit the bed. Lyric layed down and Logan climbed on top of her, and the two of them picked up where they left off.

So, I’d love to hear your thoughts on the story guys, so feel free to leave comments! Hope you liked it!

A Beautiful Day♥

A cool front came in this morning and it feels amazing outside!!!! The sun actually isn’t blazing down and about to melt my skin off! I was just sitting outside on my porch, and well I live on a ranch, so I was watching my cows, playing with my dog, and just sitting there, admiring the land I guess you could say. The concrete felt so cool under my bare feet, and in the sun it was just warm enough. It was so relaxing and gave me some much needed thinking time. I thought about just about everything going on in my life, and how content I actually am with everything. (: I also thought about my best friend leaving for the Air Force come November… I’m still so scared for him to leave, but my little thinking session actually helped me calm down a bit. I’m gonna try my best to keep a smile on my face all the while hes gone, cause quite frankly I don’t know who’s going to put the smile back on my face if he’s not here lol. But I am very happy for him and oh so proud of him! But I still hope these next few weeks go by real slow lol cause I want to spend as much time with my best friend as possible before he has to leave! I haven’t been able to spend too much time with him though/: I get busy with school and him with work/: but hopefully soon we’ll get some best friend time! I need it lol. I haven’t spent time with him since he spent the night and my friend and I pranked his car when he was sleeping >:) hahaha thats a story for another time, I’ll post that later (: but yeah, he needs to come over again! Hopefully soon. Well I hope you guys had a great day too!
Much love, -MidnightMind♥

Also, what do you guys think of me posting some of my short stories on here? I may be posting one soon, If I can get it done, so we’ll see lol.

A Letter That He’ll Never See

I constantly find myself day dreaming about a day where we can be together and happy. A day when I can call you my boyfriend and you will want to call me your girlfriend. We’re so close already and I’ve been asked multiple times if we are talking or dating. People think we are a couple when we go places together, I know you see it too. Why can’t we just take that extra step? You say you want to find a girl who’s the perfect fit, who’s a better fit than the girl you consider your best friend? I understand that you don’t want to ruin the relationship if things don’t work out, cause neither do I, but you know me and I know you, and our relationship is too strong for anything to come between us. You know that. So why not just give me a chance. Give us a chance.  You’ve gone through so many other girls, given them chances, even second chances, why not me? Why am I so different from them? I do so much for you. I love being responsible for the smile on your face. I love the way you get that cheesy smile on your face everytime you see me. I love the way you bite at your lip without realizing you’re doing it. I love the way you stand there with your hands down on your hips, shoulders shrugged, and you tilt your head back just enough to where the light chisel in your jawline shows perfectly. I love your dark brown eyes. I love your hugs, the way you rock me back and forth, rub my back, and take a deep breath during it all. In that moment, I feel so comfortable,  and I know that in your arms is where I’m supposed to be. I feel so comfortable with you. I love you so much, and I know that you love me too, but there’s one small difference. I’m in love with you. I’m in love with you and everything about you. I wish you knew that. I wish you would give me the chance to show you. I don’t mind if we don’t even get to the boyfriend/girlfriend stage. We can just talk. Just let me show you how it would be if we were together. I once gave you the advice of “you’ll never know unless you try” about a girl. You took that advice and you used it. The next week, the two of you were talking, and I was responsible for it. Why did I do it if I’m in love with you? Because I knew if you took a chance with her, and it worked out, you’d be so happy. But it didn’t work out with her. Did it change anything between ya’ll afterwards though? No. She was still your prom date later that year as friends. What hurts me is that you aren’t willing to take that advice and apply it to us. And my question is why? You say I deserve to wake up to sweet messages every morning, but what you don’t know is that I’m waiting on you to make it happen. I shouldn’t be though. But I do. I haven’t been able to move on from you. I fell for you, one of my best friends, I fell hard, and I still haven’t been able to get able to get back up on my feet. Even after 2 years, going on 3. I still get butterflies in my stomach everytime I see you. There hasn’t been a time where I didn’t. I smile as soon as I see you, and the smile doesn’t fade one bit the entire time im with you. I see your car, or think I do, and my stomach drops thinking of the chance that it could be you. I smile at just the thought of you. You’re the only one who makes me feel this way. I still catch myself trying to get dressed up or just put make up on just to catch your eye, even though I know its pointless. I’m absolutely, 110%, head over heels, lost in love with you. I’ve tried so hard, countless times to get over you, but I can’t. Maybe I’ll get over you one day, but I know for a fact that a part of me will always be in love with you, and that scares me. So I keep the little hope that I have left, that you and I might end up together someday, and I just hope and pray. But until then, I will remain your best friend, because you and our relationship mean the world to me. I will always be here for you, and you can always count on me, no matter what. I promise. I love you, best friend, to the moon and back, always.

Tests, tests, and oh yeah! More tests -_-.

I am currently supposed to be studying for my History test that I have tomorrow.. but in my defense the flashcards are all done, I just have yet to read them. I just needed a blogging break, studying sucks! I wouldn’t be so stressed if the whole test wasn’t short answer! It sucks, but hey that’s college! I hope I do well on this test. I had a Government test Tuesday also, I think I did okay. I’ll find out my grade tomorrow though! And next week I have 2 tests on Wednesday for Nutrition and Geology. Nutrition shouldn’t be too bad because the majority of what we learn is kind of common sense. So let’s hope the course doesn’t deceive the tests! And Geology.. last test grade was a 76. I hope round 2 goes better! The last test was a lot of information to take in though and we only had one day to study. I know what you’re thinking, ‘she’s a procrastinator just like every other college student’ and that’s very true! But in this case, I would have actually started studying earlier if I would have known haha. But yes I procrastinate all the time! My best friends get on to me about it, but I never listen..haha. It’s nice to know they care though lol. Well, wish me luck with these tests guys! I’ll check back in later, take care! (: