I’m apologizing now, cause this story is pulled out of my very own, depressing life events collection. So here it goes.
I don’t know why, but for some reason, I began thinking back to my senior prom. It was back in February, when I was still in high school of course. I vowed since about freshman year that I WOULD NOT attend prom, but of course with the pressure of my best friends, I was forced to go. So, i set out on the search for the “legendary” prom dress. At first, I was looking for anything that caught my eye. I’m not the type of girl that needs an extravagant dress to outdo everyone else, but I did want something a little different that I would normally get. So, keep in mind, before this I had been talking to my friend, who I like very, very, much, about finding a prom dress. I asked him if he was going to get a tux in his favorite colors, red and black. He replied with “I was actually thinking about it:)”. We continued talking and I admitted that I still hadn’t gone dress shopping, and this was about 4 weeks before prom. I told him that I would just go in jeans and boots, problem solved lol, but he told me no and when i asked why he goes “cause I said so:)” haha. So anyway, at the mall, I tried on tons of dresses, none of them quite fitting the way they should have. Finally at the last store, I came across a cute, very simple, dress. A little too simple, actually, but it was a quick find and a steal of a price. The colors, they happened to be red and black. It was black, strapless, kind of short, with a red band under the bust that tied in the back. I got home that night and texted him telling him I found a dress and to guess the colors. He immediately responded with “red and black?” I continued by explaining that it wasn’t a dress I liked so much for prom, but I settled for it. So a couple of weeks later, I began searching online for other dresses, and I came across a beautiful short red dress, with a black band under the bust, and little black flower designs and trimming at the bottom. It was gorgeous, I fell in love with it. Sadly, the dress wasn’t available in my size. ): I told my friend this as well, his response.. “well who’s fault is that if they took to long to find a dress????:)” I responded with “hey! in my defense I wanted to go a long time ago but mom wouldn’t take me! and it’s the websites fault for not having my size!:p” he replied with “oh really:)!!!” we always messed around with arguments like this haha. So, I kept searching, and finally came across what I simply called my dress. In case you can’t tell by now, I was indeed trying to get my friend to ask me to prom, it wasn’t intentional at first, but after I found the first dress that matched his tux color scheme, and bought accessories for it, I decided to keep looking for a red and black dress. So, I found a strapless red dress, it had a band under the bust with a flower like design in rhinestones on the side of the band, and the short skirt of it poofed out just enough, it was adorable. I accompanied it with black floral print tights and a small black shrug. The complete outfit looked great as I tried it on the night it came in the mail. While still having the dress on and sitting on the edge of my bed, I had already been texting my friend since earlier that night, so I told him about this dress, and well, here’s the conversation:
Me- “my other prom dress came in! it’s prettier than the first one lol”
Him- “what’s the colors?”
my thoughts by this time: oh shit… he’s on to me…. wait, omg what this is a good thing? okay, just act the same, it’s cool.
Me- “red(:”
Him- “you just wanna match me don’t you!!:)!!”
omg, yes! he knows and he seems happy about it! he’s totally gonna ask me! my heart was already racing, I had a smile on my face that would not fade away, my cheeks were already hurting from smiling so much and so big! I continued smiling as I typed back.
Me- “haha well at first I had no intention of it, the first dress just happened to be red and black, but now, yes (:”
Him- “Soooo you tryin to go with me!!:))”
*insert girly squeal here* yes! this was it!
Me- “lmao! honestly, kinda haha, you caught me (:”
omg! next message he’s so gonna ask me to prom! yes! i’m gonna have a prom date! i wonder if he’s gonna flat out ask me? gah, this night was great!
I sat and waited anxiously. I put my phone aside on my bed as I stood up to twirl in my dress. I had a full blown smile on my face, my cheeks were naturally blushed, and for once my heart felt content. I couldn’t believe things were actually happening as I wanted them too. My phone went off and I anxiously grabbed at my phone, clicking on my new message to reveal the question I had been waiting for, so I thought…
this is it! I thought with that same huge smile on my face and butterflies swarming my stomach.
I opened the message and my smile quickly faded.
Him- “Nooo I’m goin by myself. I told you this:)”
He never told me that. I would have remembered if he did. Of course, I pretended as if nothing was wrong as I continued texting him.
Me- “haha you didn’t tell me that sir”
Him- “I did tell you!!!”
Me- “when??! Lol”
Him- “Tuesday!!”
Me- “are you sure?”
Him- “yes:)”
Me- “….I don’t remember lol I’m sorry /:”(i have no idea why i was apologizing…)
Him- “its okay:)lol”
My cheeks got hot, my eyes got warm and my vision blurred from oncoming tears. I threw my phone behind me on my bed. I no longer felt pretty in my dress. I no longer even had a desire to go to prom. All my confidence had just been crushed. I felt so stupid as I sat there, in my prom dress, alone in my room, crying. I cried so much that night. I finally got up to get out of the stupid prom dress. He had no idea what he had just done to me. My heart broke in 2 and sank in my chest. My senior prom wasn’t supposed to feel like this. Yeah, that definitely was a great night.
Not to mention he ended up getting a date to prom about a week later, after that conversation. Yeah. As you can tell I’m still not over this. Or him.
Her Midnight Eyes 